I've been moody all weekend and I know it is because of the Boy. He hasn't been feeling well- either he has acid reflux or the early stages of an ulcer. During our last phone date, which was cut short because he was tired, the Boy said that due to feeling poorly he doesn't think he will come for Christmas.
My emotional reaction is totally selfish. I do care that he isn't feeling well, but spending Christmas with him is all I've had to look forward for months. There aren't words to explain how disappointed I am.
Since we are planning to get married in June, this was the one opportunity for my family to spend time with him and get to know him. Everyone is looking forward to him coming- both sets of grandparents even changed their schedules so that they could be here during his visit. We have tons of wedding stuff to work out, vendor appointments and pictures planned.
I can't think about it anymore or I might cry. I am just praying that he starts to heal, for both our sakes. There is still a week left. A lot can change in a week... right?
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